My Gnolava

PREP: 3x 1:00 bottom of squat 10 walking lunge to Spiderman stretch 10 single-leg deadlifts 10 goblet squats STRENGTH: Deadlift Advanced and Intermediate 1 x 5, 1 x AMAP All with resets (no tap and go) CONDITIONING: Beginner “I go, you go” 5-10-15-15-10-5 Kettlebell swings 3-6-9-9-6-3 Burpees I go, you go – First partner does 10 swings and 5 burpees, second partner does 10 swings 5 burpees. First partner does 20 swings 10 burpees, second partner does 20 swings 10 burpees. etc. If doing this alone time your rounds and rest that time before starting your next round. Don’t think about the whole workout, think only about sprinting through the round you’re on. No partner for me so I'm going to just go through it and rest as needed.  CASH OUT: Beginner 3x 1:00 plank 10 T-planks MOBILITY: Pigeon Couch stretch Strength:  Did 225 on DL. Got 8 reps second round Conditioning:  Used 53lb KB and did beginner scale finished in 15:54 

I will self-destruct under stress! Personal issues make me shut down. If I'm attacked, I have fear response. All of these are why I eat poorly. I can't afford to continue in this manner. What other people think of me is none of my business. Even if they're right - so what?! I am resisting the urge to write the same damn post I have been writing about "motivation" and "getting back on the horse" and all that crap. It seems to lead to a repeating cycle. I sell the story to myself and realize now that it's the selling I am leaning on and not the actual product. Hard to explain but I know what I mean. Sort of like telling a friend "today's the day!" and then sitting on your ass eating potato chips. So - no more selling. No more talking. And next post I put a starting picture so I can share what I am REALLY going through.