Start stop restart motivate slump fall get up start again truth and lies. That's been the last year or so. Summer of 2012 everything changed. Everything. Some of the change was fantastic. Some of it seemed horrible at the time. All of it was stressful. I took the self-destructive (not atypical for me) path to deal with it. I won't go into any particular detail but one. I knew something was physically wrong. I felt listless. I was out of breath very quickly. Most days I didn't nwant to get out of bed. Given the amount of crap that was going on around me I thought I might be depressed or having an emotional reaction to it all. My totals were suffering. I couldn't do any of the intensity training without feeling sick. So I blamed the workouts and pretty much stopped by November of 2012. No will. At all. I started gaining weight. So I ate more. I could no longer fit into any of my pants. During the last year I noticed my left foot swelling intermittently. I couldn...
